I am still just muddling through.

Nobody realizes that some people expend tremendous energy merely to be normal.

Albert Camus

a sailor with no face has cut the bow line

this ship exists for many reasons
no wait
that isn't true
it exists to make the passage
between today and tomorrow
the trip takes a thousand years
no it just takes one second
grief has stalked me from across the seven seas
and now I am sailing to the shore
where you are buried
my friend
my brother
my sister
I will leave today and arrive tomorrow
or I left many years years ago
and I will arrive when I am old and broken
carrying flowers for you and a shovel for me
look I am old and broken already
no
even now I am already deep
in the cold hard ground

james lee jobe

Wojtek Bąbski

a text message to john william coltrane in heaven

there are secret messages in the music
from you to me
I know this
listening to your records I hear them
and I try to write them down
before the music changes
and the message is gone
but I am seldom fast enough
are you talking to me from heaven
down here
it feels like some kind of change is taking place
like good and evil will square off soon
winner take all
two years after you died men walked on the moon
we watched it on television
all of life is on screens now
even the telephones have screens
there is still so much war
that sometimes I feel sick
inside of my heart
there is hate almost everywhere
but you know what
there is still love too
almost everywhere
good versus evil
love versus hate
you're in heaven john
and I'm still down here trying to figure it all out
on my birthday I'll be sixty-seven years old
and I am still just muddling through
but this I know
love is still greater

james lee jobe

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james